Day 73

To Dear Me,

I’ve finished my sabbath and have been seeing answers to my God questions. Someone familiar with my struggles in the church is wanting to come forward to discuss what the situation was from her perspective. So here we go speaking to church leadership about what happened. I need a resolution to the entire situation. I’m not sure that I’m going to be fully restored in ministry, because that is what I’m shooting for. I’m not sure if those doors are permanently closed to me and if new ones will be opened. I’m trusting in God for the answers.

Take care,

Alfred

Something to think about

When God closes a door, does it stay closed, and will he open other doors?

Day 72

To Dear Me,

Happy Veterans Day to all of those who currently serve or have served or have made the great sacrifice for all our lives. We live in relative peace because of them. Today is my sabbath day to rest, relax and worship God. So easy to say, so hard to do since I can always think of so many things I can be doing. Resting from work has always been a hard thing for me to do. Thank God for his principles in his word which talks about a heavenly rest that is promised to us. I’m hoping to spend some time with my son today and tomorrow. I’m working Sunday to make up the time I have been off this week. I’m still believing God for a new full-time position and have been putting in applications. All I need is for someone to call me for an interview. I’m believing in God’s favor for me. I’ll trust God.

Take care,

Alfred

Something to think about

God will take care of me when I get busy doing the Father’s will

Day 71

To Dear Me,

I’m feeling closer to God than ever before. I’m thinking I’m becoming spiritually mature in Christian character and faith. I’m listening to God and doing what he wants me to do. I’m pursuing him with all my heart and soul. I had a good meeting with my church last night and I’m looking forward to another one tonight. God's grace is being poured out for all his sainted ones and his beloved children. I’m praying for revival to hit this land, starting at our church, and spreading outward.  Jesus we all need you!

Take care,

Alfred

I pray for a consciousness towards God and his will again in America

Day 70

To Dear Me,

Today I am fighting a lot of opposition in my heart and mind toward doing the right things. But I’m praying my strong praise and worship music and choosing to live right. I’m off voting and going food shopping at some point today. What am I struggling with? I’m doing good when evil is present to rob, steal, kill and destroy. I’m living the life of a peacekeeper and walking in love and forgiveness. The enemy hates that. I’m also living in the truth of God’s word toward fellow believers and unbelievers. I’m walking in the grace and power of the Holy Spirit to destroy all the works of the devil.

Take care,

Alfred

Something to think about

God is working in my life, I shall not fear what man can do to me

Day 69

To Dear Me,

I’m stirring up the gift inside of me. I love this new station of Alexa I’ve discovered, Bethel Music. It’s more praise and worship music, a lot of what we play at my church. I’m dealing with a new schedule this week due to my being off for two days. I got to hurry up and put this down and take my shower. I’m feeling very jumbled today. It’s a good thing I’m seeing my therapist again. So much going on in my life. I’m struggling with my choices this week. I’m asking the Lord what to do and asking for more wisdom.

Take care,

Alfred

Something to think about

God gives us wisdom if we ask for it to make the right choices for myself and others

Day 68

To Dear Me

I had some many negative feelings toward the ministry God has for me at my church. But I read that I’m being disciplined by the Lord, and I will accept his chastisement so I can grow and be purified by him. I’ll step down from the 2 things that God blesses me with a heart for Prayer Team and Men’s ministry. I believe God will make it up to me in the future since I love doing both things. I can feel his strengthening power flowing through me. I want to utilize it in the way He wants me to.

Take care,

Alfred

Something to think about

Will we accept everything the Lord has for us, the good and the bad?

Day 67

To Dear Me,

I’m still tired from last night's session of 12-step program ministry with my sponsor and then with the brethren. But I know in the multitude of counselors, there is wisdom. So glad to meet my friend for breakfast this morning. We will share everything that’s been going on in my life and I know that I can trust him. God is in this story and he’s making a way for me. I’m looking forward to all the Lord has for me at church this weekend and in my life. I’m trusting in the Lord to help me straighten out this mess that has happened at my church.

Take care,

Alfred

Something to think about

God is always working, even when we cannot see it or feel it

Day 66

To Dear Me

Payday Friday! Yay! My bill collectors will be pleased. Seriously I’m grateful for God’s excellent provision. I’m just believing God that I will get an interview for the full-time library position. I’m glad I finally have my therapy appointment this Monday. I have needed my weekly appointments to keep me sane. When the storms of life come against me, my trust is in the Lord. But it’s also good to be able to sort out everything with someone else. I feel overloaded and heavily burdened at times. He helps me sort out all my emotions and feelings and make better decisions going forward.

Take care,

Alfred

Something to think about

Cast my cares upon the Lord because he cares for me. In the multitude of counselors, there is wisdom.

Day 65

To Dear Me,

I’m still excited that I watched the Astros blank the Phillies last night with their pitchers tossing a no-hitter. I went and did bloodwork with my roommate, then came back and made breakfast. I’m going to get a shower soon. Then pray and start my morning off right. I’m torn that I cannot get an appointment this week with either my therapist or a new Christian one through my church’s partnership. I guess that’s why this journal writing is so important. I put down all the things I’m going through and try to sort it all out with God’s help.

Take care,

Alfred

Something to think about

God hears all the cries of my heart and his word is the standard for truth for me

Day 64

To Dear Me,

Another Dr appointment today. I’m getting tired of all these appointments. But I guess it’s all part of growing older. November month is full of promise. I’ll go away to Jersey for a few days with my son to see and visit my relatives. It’s going to be a good mini-vacation for us both. I’m feeling frustrated with the Saturday game setup at the library. They get full too early so my son and I register late each time. Hopefully, we can both be a part of the group this Saturday. I got to get going.

Take care,

Alfred

Something to think about

Our times are all in his hands, no matter what I’m doing

Day 63

To Dear Me,

I’m flying through my morning. I didn’t get up early enough today. I have a Dr appointments at 915 today and tomorrow. Thoughts fly through my mind and my dreams from last night are still there also. I’m trying to work in my step book with my sponsor and meet with him. I’m also trying to meet with my area coordinator to start the process of getting Christian counseling for me. I did my bible and devotional readings. Now got to pray and get onto the road.

Take care,

Alfred

Something to think about

God is always there and moving in my life, even when it doesn’t seem like it