Day 152

To Dear Me,

I've been wrong. I missed three days of posting here. I've been spending more quality time with my gf and haven't been remembering or able to post. Things are really going well in that area. Even though we still need to communicate better and more frequently discuss our relationship, we're spending lots of quality time together. At the Journey, I believe I should start to take a large leap of faith towards becoming an Area Coordinator for Journey Central. Ive discussed and prayed about the position with several important leaders and I think its time to do that. I would mean a greater commitment from me and more involvement with other leaders, but with God's grace, I know I can handle it. It's a terrifying but exciting step for me. I will share it with sharon then start doing it with my director when she comes back from her medical leave. Still looking for a ft or pt position but if I don't find one soon that will be ok since volunteering at the Journey is like working a part time job. I told my therapist about the position when I saw him today and we went over life balance a d how to manage my life this morning. I think my mother will be happy with me when I tell her. We still need to talk regarding my relationship with sharon. It seems that I have much more to say and share when I dint post everyday so maybe this will be the way from now on.

Take Care

Alfred

Something to think about 

God does mange our steps when we choose to follow the path he has for us. Hrs definitely helped me manage mine.

Day 151

To Dear Me,

I just returned from my doctor’s appointment and getting my medicines from my pharmacy. Now I have an hour to get together to do some other stuff before work. I’m working eleven days straight before I have a day off. Whew. I received a letter from HR stating that they filled the full-time library assistant position and the only ones I can apply for when the opportunity presents itself is part-time library assistant positions. That’s a real disappointment but at least the door is still partly open for me to do the LA position part-time if I still want it.

Take Care

Alfred

Something to think about

I’m applying for other full-time positions and trusting the Lord will open a door if He allows it 

Day 150

To Dear Me

I felt that the Holy Spirit wanted me to post today for some reason. It could be because I have a crucial meeting with church leadership today at 10. I am looking forward to things coming to some point today; perhaps an accurate record needs to be made. I am thankful for the opportunity to move forward in whatever direction they allow me to go. Extra prayers are needed today.

Take Care,

Alfred

Something to think about

God is moving in my life powerfully and I just want to be using the time wisely

Day 149

To Dear Me,

It’s raining again and I’m feeling groggy. I drank 2 cups of coffee to get through everything. I will get measured and fitted for a new pair of glasses today at ten. I’m just trying to get through work today and be done with it. I’m glad to have a job but want so much more for myself. I’ve been applying for other full-time positions online. I’m almost through my tax refund, so many things that I needed and some that I wanted. God knows my heart and gives me the grace to do whatever I need to do daily.

Take Care

Alfred

Something to think about

I’m glad God accepts me warts and all 

Day 148

To Dear Me

I went to a new men’s breakfast fellowship Jgroup this morning. It felt great to share a meal and good times with guys. It was mostly the same faces I already know but I met a couple of new guys too. It was a great way to start my day. Now I need to pray, take my shower, and get ready for this sleep doctor's appointment. I’m feeling better and more confident about everything I’m doing. I know that I’m catching up with everything God is doing in my life.

Take Care

Alfred

Something to think about

Finding rhythm and balance in everything is important to me 

Day 147

To Dear Me

The day after the big game is always exciting and tiring. The team I rooted for won and beat a hated rival. But the lack of sleep from watching the entire game and getting home late makes me feel tired. I just saw my therapist and we had another great session. I’m really opening on things that I’m going through. My relationships are all good for the most part. The ministries I’m involved in will be settled this Sunday when I meet two different people in leadership. I’m hopeful but I’m ready for whatever the Lord allows to happen. I’m posting for new positions all of the time and working hard at the library. And the most special thing is my son’s 20^th birthday is today. I sang to him and wished him a very happy and blessed birthday.

Take Care

Alfred

Something to think about

There is so much more to think about when we consider others and not ourselves

Day 146

To Dear Me,

It’s payday Friday, so I paid my bills and have a little saved to take my son out for his upcoming birthday next week. I also bought him an Eagles shirt. It’s a milestone birthday, he turns 20. I just hope his birthday and this year brings him plenty of Godly blessings. Spending time with roommates, my gf Sharon, and my sponsor this weekend.

Take Care,

Alfred

Something to think about

God gives us everything to bless us and others. 

Day 145

To Dear Me

I went to bed early and slept for a long time. I was supposed to get up earlier, but I snoozed instead. I’m praying currently. I’m trying to draw closer to God. I need to work on my 12-step workbook. I must also start applying for new jobs. I need to decide when to cook meals for the guys and when to let them fend for themselves. I must find a balance in doing everything.

Take Care

Alfred

Something to think about

God is there to help me with my decisions

 Day 144

To Dear Me,

I'm stressing out over the many things I have to accomplish this week. Trying to fill out applications for getting a new job. Trying to catch up on my 12-step workbook before Saturday night. I have meetings almost every weeknight. I must manage my money better. I need better time management.

Take Care

Alfred

Something to think about

I must refocus on God and all the things He’s led me through, and not on my problems

Day 143

To Dear Me

I'm tired as usual. I slept for almost 11 hours and all I want to do is nap. It's really crazy. I had a full weekend of games with my son. I had a full weekend of time at my church. Now I'm at my gf house and it's mid afternoon and I'm feeling tired. I just don't get it. Not sure what this week holds but I'm hoping it will be a better one. This Saturday I'm celebrating my son's birthday. Superbowl Sunday is next Sunday and I'm working till 5. Next Tuesday is Valentines day. The following Saturday I'm supposed to go see the latest Ant-man and Wasp movie with my friend and son. It might have to wait until next pay period since we're driving down to Towson MD. So lots to do, so little money to do.it with. Story of my life!

Take Care

Alfred

Something to think about

Being financially responsible and focused, is a part of being more mature. 

Day 142

To Dear Me,

I have thought through my challenges with both roommates’ behaviors and decided to work with my own struggles first, then I’ll have a group meeting. I’m hoping to see some changes in their behavior but I know I need an increase of grace and mercy to deal with it all. My friends and counselors can help me deal with it. I will tell my therapist and hopefully, it will all work out.

Take Care

Alfred

Something to think about

God takes what the enemy meant for evil and works it out for my good.

Day 141

To Dear Me,

Making the moments count today and pressing forward to do what I don’t feel like doing with the right attitude, which is giving gratitude to God.

Take Care,

Alfred

Something to think about

God is too good to not give him the praise that He deserves