Day 106

To Dear Me,

I’m up and getting frustrated with myself. I shut off the active computer this morning and it seemed to take forever to start back up again. I’m just dealing with things and I’m tired. I’m tired of waiting for this full-time job to happen. I’m tired of this slow process of being restored fully at the church. I’m tired of constantly running back and forth between work and life. I just want more time to do stuff that I enjoy. I wish I could enjoy more things that others do often serving others at the church without sacrificing my time.

Take care

Alfred

Something to think about

Maybe I just need to enjoy the season I’m in and learn from it 

Day 105

To Dear Me,

I’m better rested but still feeling the pull of anxiety from holiday busyness. I need to pay rent, but I have my nieces and nephews to get stuff for. I think I’m just going to give them some money and tell Eric and Sheila to use it as they see fit. I’m going to the movies with my movie and buddy today then lunch. After that, I’m home to pick up my roommate and go to church. Then going to visit my good friend, eat dinner and afterward hang out at her house. Tomorrow will be very busy but I’m trying to just take things slowly.

Take Care,

Alfred

Something to think about

God gives me the grace to handle everything, I just need to just relax and let his power help me live one moment at a time.

 

Day 104

To Dear Me,

Payday Friday. Yes, my bill collectors will be happy. I’m wondering what bills are scheduled and which ones I must pay manually. It's almost too late to do online shopping. I’m feeling tired as usual. Going to be another busy weekend. Serving tonight with Zack, my sponsor, and going to the movies then the Journey Saturday. I’m working Sunday at the library from 12-5. I must be crazy doing all this rushing around. I’m running behind So I’ll wrap this up.

Take care,

Alfred

Something to think about

Am I busy because of my own schedule or his? 

Day 103

To Dear Me,

I’m still plugging on with these journal postings, that’s amazing. I’m trying to wake up and get going today. I’ve scheduled so many bills with this upcoming paycheck. I still need to buy gifts and still somehow pay my rent balance. I need financial help like an additional part-time job at least. I’m still looking for a full-time job. Hopefully, both will be coming soon. A cold front bringing snow is supposed to be heading our way. Not looking forward to that. My car is finally running well after yesterday’s transmission tune-up, thank God for my brother’s assistance.

Take Care,

Alfred

Something to think about

He’s promised to bless me financially if I just trust him, I will stay steadfast. 

Day 102

To Dear Me 

I'm at the dealership right now. Praying that my car can be fixed and all under warranty. I'm posting on my phone. So worried but trying to trust God. I just bought a Danish from the vending machine and got a coffee from the service department. I forgot to bring my books to read. I wanted to get a rental car but there's a waiting list of a week and a half. Thank God I'm off today. I guess I'll figure something out.

Take Care

Alfred

Something to think about 

Relying and trusting God during the storms of life is needed to build a stronger faith 

Day 101

To Dear Me,

Unexpected issues. My car needs to be fixed and I hope the warranty will cover it all. I might lose a day’s pay waiting for it to be fixed. Too many financial issues to deal with. It's all very overwhelming. God, I need you to move in my life today and every day. I’m going to therapy and then back home to cook dinner for tonight. I have very busy nights this week. I have the board game club tonight. Wednesday is gaming. Thursday is Jgroup. Friday I am meeting with my sponsor hopefully. I need God’s peace through all these situations.

Take care,

Alfred

Something to think about

Trusting God to be there and help can be tough at times

Day 100

Wow. One hundred days of journal and blog writing. Still stressing about finances for Christmas. I know that the Lord will provide but will it be enough? Trying not to doubt, just waiting on God and his timing. I have another busy day today. I have church. Then I’m visiting my friend who’s in the hospital, Then home for lunch. Then hopefully seeing Josh. Then back home to watch football and make dinner. Then I need to do more work on printing on the back of the Christmas cards I made.

Take care,

Alfred

I am in need of patience while God is working on my circumstances 

Day 99

To Dear Me,

Even though I have the blessing of abundance in my food shopping, I’m still looking for help to provide more money for Christmas shopping. I must buy some more things next week and I still have my big bills. Not sure how everything is going to work out. I’m really believing God for some miraculous money for next week. My interview went well I believe and I’m really praying for a positive outcome from it. I got to take my shower and get ready for the day. God be with me today and every day.

Take care

Alfred

Something to think about

God is near to the brokenhearted and those who are crushed in spirit.

 Day 98

To Dear Me

Today is the day. Too much going on right now. I’m trying to be upbeat and confident. I must take my shower and iron my clothing. Then I have a Zoom meeting that I might have to cancel so I can be ready for this interview. I’m going to work early so I’ll already be there. My appointment is at 12:15. I’m excited of course but filled with nervous energy. I need to think about what libraries have meant to me and take that into my interview.

Take care

Alfred

Something to think about

God has taken care of me and has used many things to watch over me

Day 97

To Dear Me,

I went and took my roommate to the store this morning. I’m dealing with crazy dreams from last night and the night before. I just read my bible and devotional readings. Now going to take my shower. I still have plenty of anxiety about the upcoming holidays and my bills which doesn’t help my financial situation. I need to pick up some extra money soon to pay for everything. I also need gas money for next week. So tired of struggling financially. Things need to change and change soon.

Take care,

Alfred

Something to think about

God is able to provide all things for what we need 

Day 96

To Dear Me

Another day of anxiety. I’m working on improving my interview skills this morning.  I’m trying to figure out what I’m going to do for gas next week. I don’t want to borrow from my brother again. Ugh. My roommate’s girlfriend is coming over soon. I’m dealing with multiple body problems today. I did my Bible and devotional reading and entered prayer. Praying for my close friend whose having surgery today. I’m praying that I will remember to be wise and use common sense in every situation.

Take care

Alfred

Something to think about

God apply my heart unto wisdom and common knowledge