Day 95

To Dear Me,

Big day today! I have one of my most important interviews today for a full-time library assistant. I really need this job opportunity. I do feel I’m the best candidate for this position. But I must stand out from the competition and prove myself. I’m thinking of the word, veteran, which is what I feel I am. I’m a veteran of all the customer service opportunities I have had in my lifetime, and this job is the pinnacle of everything I have done. I have served with honor and prestige with all that I’ve gone through in the various positions I’ve done.  I have been in leadership positions at the library job and in my church. I have seen the highs and lows of the customer service field and have come out on top successfully.

Take care,

Alfred

Something to think about

God has been with me, helping me to be confident and courageous through everything

Day 94

To Dear Me,

Another Monday to conquer. I got up late and had to rush to my therapist appointment. It went well but just reinforced how much I need to do for the week. I’m way behind on my interview practice and I need to now cram the questions. It’s so important, yet I let this lapse. I forgot to buy stuff at the store to make chili tonight, darn it. I still need to pray and get going to work.

Take Care,

Alfred

Something to think about,

When life gets difficult, remember God and what he’s able to do on my behalf 

Day 93

To Dear Me,

Ooh, and argh! My body is so tired and sore from serving a special occasion last night. I’m not doing that again. I have a busy morning and I must fight to get this body moving. All I want to do is rest, even though I got plenty of sleep last night. I must serve at my church and meet with friends afterward for lunch. God, I’m asking you to recharge and energize this body to do what I need to do today.

Take care,

Alfred

Something to think about

Next time I’ll count the cost before volunteering to do something for someone else

Day 92

To Dear Me,

It's raining and cold outside. It’s not the best weather outside to go out in. But we’re going to do this thing. I just received a call from the man of God. He was pumped and he made me feel the fire of God this morning. I’m so charged now. I’m going to take my shower and get ready for the day. Semper Fi. Taking charge of this day!

Take care,

Alfred

Something to think about

Just one event or one person can change everything, Jesus.

Day 91

To Dear Me,

I’m cold and tired. I just came back from the store. I had to take my roommate to the store and buy him some soda and cigarettes. I’m running behind now on my daily morning activities and rituals. I got paid and bought stuff and paid bills. I’m ready for my second cup of coffee, maybe that will get me going mentally and physically. I’m struggling to know what to write today.

Take care,

Alfred

Something to think about

Without my morning God connection, I feel lost and swimming in darkness. 

Day 90

To Dear Me

Today is the first really cold day of the year. Brr. It's also a new month and starts the downhill slide to the Christmas holiday. Too much going on. But I’m reconnecting with my tribe, and they are helping support me with all my goals. I love my Christian family members. I need to somehow do all I can to participate in my family projects and still be a blessing to them and my friends. I need more clothing and new shoes, but I’m going to wait till after Christmas even though it's hard. I’m making sacrifices and doing all I can with the money I get. Praying that I can get this full-time job soon.

Take care

Alfred

Something to think about

Becoming disciplined in all things is hard but better for me. 

Day 89

To Dear Me,

I haven’t gone to the Lord in bible reading and prayer yet. I wanted to do some other things first, then go before the throne without all these interruptions bothering me. I’m listening to some powerful praise and worship. It’s raining hard and windy outside, but I’m not letting the weather get me down. I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about the holidays and trying to not stress out over everything. I need to work with my finances and still buy Christmas presents. I’m going to bake cakes and give them to my friends for the holidays.

Take care

Alfred

Something to think about

Christmas is one of the most important holidays for us, let me treat it as a special and sacred time

Day 88

To Dear Me,

I went to bed early and got up later today. I feel well-rested, and my body and mind are clearer than yesterday. I had laundry to do and regular stuff this morning. I’m thinking about Christmas shopping and how to do it with my limited funds. I also need to start practicing for my interview next week. This month will be going by very fast. We are coming down the stretch and the holidays are quickly approaching. So much to do. Now my mind is racing to think about everything. I’m feeling anxious. Oh, well, I guess everything will happen when it’s supposed to happen.

Take care,

alfred

Day 87

To Dear Me,

I’ve got lots that I did this morning. I had my therapist appointment, found out how to get my EBT card, got my haircut and shave from my roommate, and other assorted things. I’m drinking more coffee since I didn’t get a lot of sleep last night because I watched the game and hung out too late with my friend. I am determined to do better with my finances and physical health. I’m going to get my bike together so I can ride it in the local park. My mind is a blur of things to do to be productive before going to work.

Take care

Alfred

Something to think about

In the midst of the storms of life, God is still there, right where he belongs

Day 86

To Dear Me,

I’m back home and it feels great to be here and rested. I went to church last night, so I’m staying home. I’m working at 1. Both roommates are here, and things are back to normal. Hollen was glad to see us. We had breakfast and now I’m posting on my notepad again. I’m asking the Lord for more help enforcing my boundaries with people. Too many people know my business and sometimes that bothers me. Maybe I’ll bring that up with my therapist tomorrow. I’m glad that my old friend and I connected again. It was good to see him again. I am hoping to see him again around Christmas. I misplaced one of my devotionals. I really miss not reading from it this morning.

Take care,

Alfred

Something to think about

God is weaving all the parts of my story together into a grand masterpiece of his glory

Day 85

To Dear Me

This is my last day in Jersey.  I've enjoyed my time here with my family but I'm ready to go home. I'm leaving here at 2. We will be home in time to go to the Journey tonight with my roommate. I'm still feeling a bit tired, but I'll be ok to drive back home. 

Take care, 

Alfred

Something to think about

God takes care and provides us with everything we need.