Day 100

Wow. One hundred days of journal and blog writing. Still stressing about finances for Christmas. I know that the Lord will provide but will it be enough? Trying not to doubt, just waiting on God and his timing. I have another busy day today. I have church. Then I’m visiting my friend who’s in the hospital, Then home for lunch. Then hopefully seeing Josh. Then back home to watch football and make dinner. Then I need to do more work on printing on the back of the Christmas cards I made.

Take care,

Alfred

I am in need of patience while God is working on my circumstances 

Day 99

To Dear Me,

Even though I have the blessing of abundance in my food shopping, I’m still looking for help to provide more money for Christmas shopping. I must buy some more things next week and I still have my big bills. Not sure how everything is going to work out. I’m really believing God for some miraculous money for next week. My interview went well I believe and I’m really praying for a positive outcome from it. I got to take my shower and get ready for the day. God be with me today and every day.

Take care

Alfred

Something to think about

God is near to the brokenhearted and those who are crushed in spirit.

 Day 98

To Dear Me

Today is the day. Too much going on right now. I’m trying to be upbeat and confident. I must take my shower and iron my clothing. Then I have a Zoom meeting that I might have to cancel so I can be ready for this interview. I’m going to work early so I’ll already be there. My appointment is at 12:15. I’m excited of course but filled with nervous energy. I need to think about what libraries have meant to me and take that into my interview.

Take care

Alfred

Something to think about

God has taken care of me and has used many things to watch over me

Day 97

To Dear Me,

I went and took my roommate to the store this morning. I’m dealing with crazy dreams from last night and the night before. I just read my bible and devotional readings. Now going to take my shower. I still have plenty of anxiety about the upcoming holidays and my bills which doesn’t help my financial situation. I need to pick up some extra money soon to pay for everything. I also need gas money for next week. So tired of struggling financially. Things need to change and change soon.

Take care,

Alfred

Something to think about

God is able to provide all things for what we need 

Day 96

To Dear Me

Another day of anxiety. I’m working on improving my interview skills this morning.  I’m trying to figure out what I’m going to do for gas next week. I don’t want to borrow from my brother again. Ugh. My roommate’s girlfriend is coming over soon. I’m dealing with multiple body problems today. I did my Bible and devotional reading and entered prayer. Praying for my close friend whose having surgery today. I’m praying that I will remember to be wise and use common sense in every situation.

Take care

Alfred

Something to think about

God apply my heart unto wisdom and common knowledge 

Day 95

To Dear Me,

Big day today! I have one of my most important interviews today for a full-time library assistant. I really need this job opportunity. I do feel I’m the best candidate for this position. But I must stand out from the competition and prove myself. I’m thinking of the word, veteran, which is what I feel I am. I’m a veteran of all the customer service opportunities I have had in my lifetime, and this job is the pinnacle of everything I have done. I have served with honor and prestige with all that I’ve gone through in the various positions I’ve done.  I have been in leadership positions at the library job and in my church. I have seen the highs and lows of the customer service field and have come out on top successfully.

Take care,

Alfred

Something to think about

God has been with me, helping me to be confident and courageous through everything

Day 94

To Dear Me,

Another Monday to conquer. I got up late and had to rush to my therapist appointment. It went well but just reinforced how much I need to do for the week. I’m way behind on my interview practice and I need to now cram the questions. It’s so important, yet I let this lapse. I forgot to buy stuff at the store to make chili tonight, darn it. I still need to pray and get going to work.

Take Care,

Alfred

Something to think about,

When life gets difficult, remember God and what he’s able to do on my behalf 

Day 93

To Dear Me,

Ooh, and argh! My body is so tired and sore from serving a special occasion last night. I’m not doing that again. I have a busy morning and I must fight to get this body moving. All I want to do is rest, even though I got plenty of sleep last night. I must serve at my church and meet with friends afterward for lunch. God, I’m asking you to recharge and energize this body to do what I need to do today.

Take care,

Alfred

Something to think about

Next time I’ll count the cost before volunteering to do something for someone else

Day 92

To Dear Me,

It's raining and cold outside. It’s not the best weather outside to go out in. But we’re going to do this thing. I just received a call from the man of God. He was pumped and he made me feel the fire of God this morning. I’m so charged now. I’m going to take my shower and get ready for the day. Semper Fi. Taking charge of this day!

Take care,

Alfred

Something to think about

Just one event or one person can change everything, Jesus.

Day 91

To Dear Me,

I’m cold and tired. I just came back from the store. I had to take my roommate to the store and buy him some soda and cigarettes. I’m running behind now on my daily morning activities and rituals. I got paid and bought stuff and paid bills. I’m ready for my second cup of coffee, maybe that will get me going mentally and physically. I’m struggling to know what to write today.

Take care,

Alfred

Something to think about

Without my morning God connection, I feel lost and swimming in darkness. 

Day 90

To Dear Me

Today is the first really cold day of the year. Brr. It's also a new month and starts the downhill slide to the Christmas holiday. Too much going on. But I’m reconnecting with my tribe, and they are helping support me with all my goals. I love my Christian family members. I need to somehow do all I can to participate in my family projects and still be a blessing to them and my friends. I need more clothing and new shoes, but I’m going to wait till after Christmas even though it's hard. I’m making sacrifices and doing all I can with the money I get. Praying that I can get this full-time job soon.

Take care

Alfred

Something to think about

Becoming disciplined in all things is hard but better for me.